Another Devotion “Self-Examination” from my new book “God and Me” This will probably be my last sneak peak. You are just going to have to buy the book
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I went and spent time with Jesus in my heart. When Jesus asked me to meet Him there, I was a bit nervous. We had not met in my heart for a while and I was wondering what we would find. I approached my heart and examined the outside. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. I opened the door and found it was so bright and peaceful. The light shining in my heart was the brightest it has ever been.
Jesus said, “I like what you have done with the place.”
I asked, “What did I do?”
Jesus replied, “You let me decorate. You let me take over. When you stopped self-examining yourself and beating yourself up it became beautiful in here.” Jesus flashed images in my head of me taking sledgehammers and regular hammers and pounding away at the walls of my heart to make myself better.
For years I had self-examined myself. Before I became a teenager I would look at the way I talked, walked, and acted to see what needed to be changed. When I became a Christian I constantly self-examined myself to make improvements to be a better Christ follower.
The Lord pointed out that every time I went to hang out with Him I was ashamed to come before Him. I tried to stop my shame but it didn’t get better. Finally, I asked God to change me and Holy Spirit showed me that because I constantly self-examined myself I had condemned myself for my faults and never felt good enough.
I needed to only allow God to point out my shortcomings by spending time with Him, reading the Bible, and fellowshipping with other believers. Holy Spirit let me know that I was no longer allowed to make self-examinations to find my faults. Only God was allowed to point out what needed to be changed.
I looked around my heart in awe of the peace and brightness that filled the room. I noticed pictures on the wall that Jesus had put up. Jesus led me over to them. The first picture was when God and I took a ride on a chariot made of gold. It was one of my fondest memories with Him. Daddy and I were sitting on the back, flying through the air, over water, and land. I noticed in the picture that we were laughing and my face was full of joy. Jesus walked me over to another picture where I was sitting on the ground of a bathroom praying that God would provide milk for the mission group I was with. In the picture Jesus had His hand on my shoulders. It was a precious memory to me because it was the first time God ever gave me a vision.
There were other pictures along the wall of my heart. Jesus pointed out a wall that had no pictures on it. He said, “That is for more pictures of memories in the future. So you can put up precious memories to come.” →
I asked, “Jesus should no one self-examine themselves, or just me?”
Jesus answered, “No one should. When you self-examine yourself you are looking through distorted glasses and cannot see properly. Only God can because He sees clearly and knows what needs to be worked on.”
I came to the conclusion that it is even more important for believers to stay in God’s presence and His Word daily so that God can continue to grow and shape us into Christ like followers. We also need to be connected to the body of Christ so that if we are not listening to God in His presence or allowing the Bible to change us then God can use His people to help us. Those three things are so vital to becoming more like Christ.
Are you spending time in God’s Word daily? Are you spending one on one time with the Lord? Are you connected to a group of believers? Self-examination is not good. It only gives a jaded perspective. Making these three disciplines a part of your lifestyle will help to give you a balanced perspective.
For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
– Hebrews 4:12 (NIV)
And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.
– Hebrews 10:25 (NLT)