Just did this video today. It is my heart and passion. How to “Seek First the Kingdom of God” What that looks like for us today as followers of Christ.
Here is my latest video about God being a creator and detailed artist:
Growing up I had a lot of fear in my life. I was afraid of the dark, of things in my closet, of bad dreams. Mainly things at night.
This fear has kind of followed me my whole life. There would be times it was tucked away only for me to think it was gone but then certain situations would bring that fear right back to the surface, sometimes making it stronger.
Two years ago my husband and I were living in a warehouse and just before we moved out we were robbed, with us being there. It was the most terrifying moment of my life. I didn’t know if we were going to die, I didn’t know if I was going to get raped. Yet through it all God protected us. Though the cops didn’t catch everyone that was involved two men went to jail that night. That event left me marked with the spirit of fear targeting me in every waking and sleeping moment of my day.
I have struggled with horrific fear for two years now. Some times it subsides other times it comes in full force. Just recently I was home alone with my baby and dog and saw a car parked in our drive way. They had two huge dogs with them. I sat at my window watching while my dog barked like crazy and I wondered what they were up to. That car didn’t leave and the longer it stayed in the drive way the more fear crept in until my body was shaking. I started to have flash backs of the night we were robbed. As the situation progressed I called people that could maybe help me but no immediate response. After what seemed like forever two other cars pulled up and took the dogs and the first car drive away. For what I could gather the person in the first car had found the wandering dogs, called the owners and waited for them to come get them. For a week after this incident I fought and fought fear as it wanted to over take me and leave me in my bed never to get out again. The fear felt like it was going to over power me and so I fought in prayer, and asking others to pray.
Over the next couple of days after that the Lord revealed to me that in that situation with the person parked and the dogs I never asked God what to do. I never focused on Him. Instead I had all these scenarios run through my head of how to protect my family, who to call, what the person s) might do to me if they got in. A hundred thoughts but not one was on God. The Lord showed me that my whole life, when fear would come, I would let the enemy play with my mind but I would not turn my thoughts to Jesus.
let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. – Hebrews 12:1b-2 (NLT)
Yesterday and today I started to focus my thoughts on Jesus and His love for me and that he is “bigger than the boogieman” as Veggietales so wonderfully put it. The more I focused on Jesus and put my eyes on him and his love the less power fear actually had. I started to have peace again.
Though I am not completely over my fear, I am for the first time in my life on the right path. I am looking forward to seeing my oldest sister and having prayer session with her about this. And I am pushing through and crying out to God for deliverance. But at least I am on the right path. AT least now my eyes are focused on God instead of the WHAT IFs?!?
What about you? Where do you struggle in life? Have you stopped to focus your eyes and thoughts on Jesus. Have you started to speak His truth over you instead of what the enemy, the devil wants you to believe. Have you stopped listening to what other people have to say about you and started to put on repeat what the Lord says about you. We have to fix our eyes on God. We have to have our thoughts consumed with his ways and his love. Only then can we truly be free from those things that so easily entangle us.
I will praise the Lord who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.- Psalm 16:7-11 (NIV)
Here is a little bit about my first book, One Yes:
In this video I talk about WHY we should spend time with the Lord and even some ways on HOW to spend time with the Lord.
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It is not always easy knowing when God is communicating. Here are 8 different ways God can speak to you.
Another Devotion “Self-Examination” from my new book “God and Me” This will probably be my last sneak peak. You are just going to have to buy the book
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I went and spent time with Jesus in my heart. When Jesus asked me to meet Him there, I was a bit nervous. We had not met in my heart for a while and I was wondering what we would find. I approached my heart and examined the outside. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. I opened the door and found it was so bright and peaceful. The light shining in my heart was the brightest it has ever been.
Jesus said, “I like what you have done with the place.”
I asked, “What did I do?”
Jesus replied, “You let me decorate. You let me take over. When you stopped self-examining yourself and beating yourself up it became beautiful in here.” Jesus flashed images in my head of me taking sledgehammers and regular hammers and pounding away at the walls of my heart to make myself better.
For years I had self-examined myself. Before I became a teenager I would look at the way I talked, walked, and acted to see what needed to be changed. When I became a Christian I constantly self-examined myself to make improvements to be a better Christ follower.
The Lord pointed out that every time I went to hang out with Him I was ashamed to come before Him. I tried to stop my shame but it didn’t get better. Finally, I asked God to change me and Holy Spirit showed me that because I constantly self-examined myself I had condemned myself for my faults and never felt good enough.
I needed to only allow God to point out my shortcomings by spending time with Him, reading the Bible, and fellowshipping with other believers. Holy Spirit let me know that I was no longer allowed to make self-examinations to find my faults. Only God was allowed to point out what needed to be changed.
I looked around my heart in awe of the peace and brightness that filled the room. I noticed pictures on the wall that Jesus had put up. Jesus led me over to them. The first picture was when God and I took a ride on a chariot made of gold. It was one of my fondest memories with Him. Daddy and I were sitting on the back, flying through the air, over water, and land. I noticed in the picture that we were laughing and my face was full of joy. Jesus walked me over to another picture where I was sitting on the ground of a bathroom praying that God would provide milk for the mission group I was with. In the picture Jesus had His hand on my shoulders. It was a precious memory to me because it was the first time God ever gave me a vision.
There were other pictures along the wall of my heart. Jesus pointed out a wall that had no pictures on it. He said, “That is for more pictures of memories in the future. So you can put up precious memories to come.” →
I asked, “Jesus should no one self-examine themselves, or just me?”
Jesus answered, “No one should. When you self-examine yourself you are looking through distorted glasses and cannot see properly. Only God can because He sees clearly and knows what needs to be worked on.”
I came to the conclusion that it is even more important for believers to stay in God’s presence and His Word daily so that God can continue to grow and shape us into Christ like followers. We also need to be connected to the body of Christ so that if we are not listening to God in His presence or allowing the Bible to change us then God can use His people to help us. Those three things are so vital to becoming more like Christ.
Are you spending time in God’s Word daily? Are you spending one on one time with the Lord? Are you connected to a group of believers? Self-examination is not good. It only gives a jaded perspective. Making these three disciplines a part of your lifestyle will help to give you a balanced perspective.
For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
– Hebrews 4:12 (NIV)
And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.
– Hebrews 10:25 (NLT)