Agreeing with a lie or making an Ungodly Vow

I had my friend Kathy be the guest speaker on my youtube channel to talk about being in agreement with a lie or making an ungoldy vow and how that can affect our lives. Kathy also walks us through how to renounce an agreement or vow so we can live a life of freedom!!!
It was awesome doing the video with Kathy!



Fear vs Peace

Growing up I had a lot of fear in my life. I was afraid of the dark, of things in my closet, of bad dreams. Mainly things at night.

This fear has kind of followed me my whole life. There would be times it was tucked away only for me to think it was gone but then certain situations would bring that fear right back to the surface, sometimes making it stronger.

Two years ago my husband and I were living in a warehouse and just before we moved out we were robbed, with us being there.  It was the most terrifying moment of my life.  I didn’t know if we were going to die, I didn’t know if I was going to get raped.  Yet through it all God protected us.  Though the cops didn’t catch everyone that was involved two men went to jail that night.  That event left me marked with the spirit of fear targeting me in every waking and sleeping moment of my day.

I have struggled with horrific fear for two years now.  Some times it subsides other times it comes in full force. Just recently I was home alone with my baby and dog and saw a car parked in our drive way.  They had two huge dogs with them.  I sat at my window watching while my dog barked like crazy and I wondered what they were up to.  That car didn’t leave and the longer it stayed in the drive way the more fear crept in until my body was shaking. I started to have flash backs of the night we were robbed.  As the situation progressed I called people that could maybe help me but no immediate response.  After what seemed like forever two other cars pulled up and took the dogs and the first car drive away.  For what I could gather the person in the first car had found the wandering dogs, called the owners and waited for them to come get them.  For a week after this incident I fought and fought fear as it wanted to over take me and leave me in my bed never to get out again.  The fear felt like it was going to over power me and so I fought in prayer, and asking others to pray.

Over the next couple of days after that the Lord revealed to me that in that situation with the person parked and the dogs I never asked God what to do. I never focused on Him.  Instead I had all these scenarios run through my head of how to protect my family, who to call, what the person s) might do to me if they got in.  A hundred thoughts but not one was on God.  The Lord showed me that my whole life, when fear would come, I would let the enemy play with my mind but I would not turn my thoughts to Jesus.

let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. – Hebrews 12:1b-2 (NLT)


Yesterday and today I started to focus my thoughts on Jesus and His love for me and that he is “bigger than the boogieman” as Veggietales so wonderfully put it.  The more I focused on Jesus and put my eyes on him and his love the less power fear actually had. I started to have peace again.

Though I am not completely over my fear, I am for the first time in my life on the right path.  I am looking forward to seeing my oldest sister and having prayer session with her about this. And I am pushing through and crying out to God for deliverance.  But at least I am on the right path. AT least now my eyes are focused on God instead of the WHAT IFs?!?

What about you? Where do you struggle in life? Have you stopped to focus your eyes and thoughts on Jesus.  Have you started to speak His truth over you instead of what the enemy, the devil wants you to believe.  Have you stopped listening to what other people have to say about you and started to put on repeat what the Lord says about you. We have to fix our eyes on God. We have to have our thoughts consumed with his ways and his love.  Only then can we truly be free from those things that so easily entangle us.

I will praise the Lord who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.- Psalm 16:7-11 (NIV)



Breast feeding is natural! (A Modesty point of view)

I think I just read my last article and watched my last video on how “natural breast feeding” is and why we as women should not have to cover up. I have watched these videos, read these articles and have been silence long enough, or maybe too long.
Years ago I wrote a note on facebook titled “The call to Modesty women of God” I talked about how men from the mission group (Friend Ships) I was with got up one day during our crew devotion and pleaded with us women to dress more modestly. “Women summer is coming soon and we are in need of your help. During this time less clothing is worn. We are asking to help us walk out our lives pure for God. If you would please dress in a way that would not make us stumble. Please when you bend over make sure you wear a shirt that does not reveal what is underneath. Please have shirts that cover your midsection no matter what way you move, bend, etc. And please wear longer shorts. We love our God, we love our wives, we want to see you as sisters. But when you wear such clothing it is hard to keep our thoughts pure. We want to have pure thoughts all the time. We want to keep our thoughts on the things of God and not be tempted by what can be seen. Please help us stay pure for God.”
That speech literally changed my life. The Lord used it to wake me up and realize what I do and wear does affect my brothers in Christ. And now I would do anything not only for them but for all men to dress more modestly so that they may not stumble and to help them be kept pure.
Men have it hard, immodesty is all over; billboards, grocery store line, tv, internet etc. Why be one more source of men’s struggle to stay pure for God and/or their wives.
I have heard time and time again from women of all walks of life, Christian and non-christian, that breast feeding is natural and beautiful therefore I should not have to cover up. Can I tell you “YES it is so beautiful.” It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever had the joy of doing. Yes it is super natural, God did create women’s bodies to be able to feed our children. But can I tell you going pee is just as natural as breast feeding. Making love to your spouse is just is natural and beautiful as breast feeding and yet these are done in the proper place and time. There are a lot of things that are natural and beautiful but that doesn’t mean they should all be exposed for the world to see.
Women, God created men to be visual and women to be relational when it comes to sexual things. When men see parts of our bodies God created them to automatically think about sexual things, it was how they were designed. The Lord did this for a husband and wife in private setting. God is asking us to be Modest to help our fellow brothers not to stumble, to help them stay pure for Him. When we expose parts of our body men do have sexual thoughts.
You may be thinking: “That is their problem not mine” “They shouldn’t be looking” “I can dress or do whatever I please it is their fault if they can’t help themselves” That may be true but then you are missing the point. God gave me this scripture after the men at Friend Ships got up and gave the speech: “Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in the way of a brother or sister.” This passage was referring to eating clean or unclean food. But God was showing me it can apply to this. To not put up stumbling blocks in front of our brothers in Christ. To help them by dressing modest in all that we wear. Whether in dresses, work clothes, work out outfits, swim suits, breast feeding, Etc. To look out for our brothers.
Women I am begging you to cover up when you breast feed. To look out for your brothers, to consider them above yourselves. Do not allow your freedom as a mother to cause your brothers to stumble. This scripture really spoke to me about the whole breast feeding controversy: You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Galatians 5:13-14 (NIV) Love your brothers as yourself. Love them more than your right to breast feed uncovered. Love them more than your right as a mother to feed your child however you want. We need to look out for one another.
Don’t get me wrong I breast feed in public but I do cover up. (PS Gabriel hates it when I do and fights me. It ain’t no walk in the park) I do have a cover with me at all times. And if I feel a man will be uncomfortable with it I will go into another room. Shoot I have even gone into a stall in a public bathroom to feed just to protect the heart and mind of men. Why? Because I love my brothers so much I am willing to go out of my way to help them stay pure for the Lord. I am willing to be inconvenienced in order to show love to men.
Christian women please reconsider your stance on breast feeding. Please look at it from the men’s point of view, instead of just your own. Love your neighbor, in this case your brothers, as yourself.
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Last Sneak Peak of my Devotional

Another Devotion “Self-Examination” from my new book “God and Me” This will probably be my last sneak peak. You are just going to have to buy the book

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I went and spent time with Jesus in my heart. When Jesus asked me to meet Him there, I was a bit nervous. We had not met in my heart for a while and I was wondering what we would find. I approached my heart and examined the outside. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. I opened the door and found it was so bright and peaceful. The light shining in my heart was the brightest it has ever been.

Jesus said, “I like what you have done with the place.”

I asked, “What did I do?”

Jesus replied, “You let me decorate. You let me take over. When you stopped self-examining yourself and beating yourself up it became beautiful in here.” Jesus flashed images in my head of me taking sledgehammers and regular hammers and pounding away at the walls of my heart to make myself better.

For years I had self-examined myself. Before I became a teenager I would look at the way I talked, walked, and acted to see what needed to be changed. When I became a Christian I constantly self-examined myself to make improvements to be a better Christ follower.
The Lord pointed out that every time I went to hang out with Him I was ashamed to come before Him. I tried to stop my shame but it didn’t get better. Finally, I asked God to change me and Holy Spirit showed me that because I constantly self-examined myself I had condemned myself for my faults and never felt good enough.
I needed to only allow God to point out my shortcomings by spending time with Him, reading the Bible, and fellowshipping with other believers. Holy Spirit let me know that I was no longer allowed to make self-examinations to find my faults. Only God was allowed to point out what needed to be changed.

I looked around my heart in awe of the peace and brightness that filled the room. I noticed pictures on the wall that Jesus had put up. Jesus led me over to them. The first picture was when God and I took a ride on a chariot made of gold. It was one of my fondest memories with Him. Daddy and I were sitting on the back, flying through the air, over water, and land. I noticed in the picture that we were laughing and my face was full of joy. Jesus walked me over to another picture where I was sitting on the ground of a bathroom praying that God would provide milk for the mission group I was with. In the picture Jesus had His hand on my shoulders. It was a precious memory to me because it was the first time God ever gave me a vision.
There were other pictures along the wall of my heart. Jesus pointed out a wall that had no pictures on it. He said, “That is for more pictures of memories in the future. So you can put up precious memories to come.” →

I asked, “Jesus should no one self-examine themselves, or just me?”
Jesus answered, “No one should. When you self-examine yourself you are looking through distorted glasses and cannot see properly. Only God can because He sees clearly and knows what needs to be worked on.”

I came to the conclusion that it is even more important for believers to stay in God’s presence and His Word daily so that God can continue to grow and shape us into Christ like followers. We also need to be connected to the body of Christ so that if we are not listening to God in His presence or allowing the Bible to change us then God can use His people to help us. Those three things are so vital to becoming more like Christ.

Are you spending time in God’s Word daily? Are you spending one on one time with the Lord? Are you connected to a group of believers? Self-examination is not good. It only gives a jaded perspective. Making these three disciplines a part of your lifestyle will help to give you a balanced perspective.

For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
– Hebrews 4:12 (NIV)

And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.
– Hebrews 10:25 (NLT)