God and Me, the devotional, just came out last week. It is pretty exciting to witness first hand a dream God gave me and see it come to reality. Yet even in all the excitement I have to admit I didn’t really want it available for the public. It is my most personal interactions with the Lord and it was and is hard for me to share. The following is the introduction in the book to show you the heart behind God and Me:
I have made it a priority in my life to spend time with God. During some of our times together the Lord told me that He wanted a book to be written about our interactions together, to make a book of devotions from what He has taught me over the years. I was reluctant at first because my personal time with God is my most prized possession. It is what I treasure the most and I didn’t want people peering in through a window or judging my time with the Lord. Like the Scripture says in Matthew 7:6, “. . .do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.” I didn’t want people picking, prodding, or analyzing my time with God only to tear it apart and then possibly criticize me. I didn’t even share a lot of these experiences with my husband, not because I didn’t trust him, but because they were special just between myself and my Daddy, the King.
Yet God is so gentle and kind. He knows how to talk to me and convince me to do things that I would never do on my own. Through His love and direction I wrote a lot of my interactions with Him in this book with the hope that it would help other people in their walk with the Lord. I would ask God which interactions He wanted me to share and which ones I could keep to myself.
As you read the devotions you will notice that they usually start out with, “I went to hang out with God,” or “I went to spend time with Jesus,” or “I went to abide with Holy Spirit.” Over the years I have found that secret place the Bible talks about and that is where I spend my time with God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit. Psalms 91:1 says, “He that dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” A lot of times God would even tell me when He wanted to meet with me by saying, “Come abide with me.” When writing this book I was reading Psalms 91 and noticed that it said, “abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” I had never really noticed the word “abide” in this verse and was tickled that all these years God would beckon me to come spend time with Him by using the word abide. I had recognized that word in John when Jesus said, “If you abide in me, I will abide in you.” God desires to abide with all of us. I hope this book encourages you to abide with the Lord.
You will also notice I talk about going to the throne room or hanging out in the throne room. That is one of the secret places I spend time with the Lord. In Hebrews 4:16 it says, “Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace . . .” or another version says, “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence . . .” A friend of mine taught me that we should take this Scripture literally. There is a throne room and I can go there to spend time with the Lord in boldness and confidence. Over the years I would go to the throne room where God would be sitting on His throne. There I would spend time with Him, whether it was sitting in His lap, dancing before the Lord, or being taught lessons as if I was in a classroom.
I began spending time with God in the throne room. As I spent more time hanging out with God we began to meet and go to different places. Not only did we meet in different places but I spent time with Jesus and Holy Spirit as well.
This is the second book that I have written and during the time that I was writing God and Me and One Yes God gave me a vision about the books He was asking me to write. God used a setting from a Max Lucado children’s book called You are Special as a setting. In the vision I and all the other humans were Wemmicks, which are wooden people. God was Eli the woodcarver in my vision. I would like to share that vision with you since it has to do with these books which God and I wrote:
I was spending time with God when He told me to hold out my hands. I did, and in it He put papers that had been rolled and folded up.
I asked, “What is it?”
God answered, “A manuscript.”
So I unfolded the pile of papers and read it. The manuscript started when I was born in a small village deep in the woods. I grew up and found that there was a Maker. In the script, I was a wooden person and God was “Eli” from Max Lucado’s book. God then told me to skip to the part where it talks about the present time. I skipped over my life and got to the present day. I read that I was writing books and that I would go up to the Woodcarver, Eli’s, shop and spend time with Him. The story came alive and I was in God’s woodshop sitting on a tall stool that was so big that my whole body fit on the seat and my legs did not even hang over the side. God was sitting at His bench. I had paper in my lap and a pen in my hand. God and I were writing the book together. We would discuss what details needed to go in it and I would write it down.
When the book was done we printed it and I went down to the village where the other wooden people were at and started to hand out the book that God and I wrote. Some didn’t believe that God had anything to do with the book and dismissed it all together. But others believed and they went to God’s workshop to spend time with Him. I saw droves of people walking up the hill to meet with God. At one point there was even a line of people filing in to spend time with the Lord.
One day, I went up to the Woodcarver’s shop to spend time with God. As I walked in, the place was full of people all sitting on the floor at the Lord’s feet. There were so many people that I couldn’t even see the floor. I walked through the crowd to go sit on God’s lap. It was wonderful, but I felt like a jealous little kid that didn’t want to share their parent. I got in God’s lap and He knew that I was jealous.
He said, “There is more than enough of Me to go around.”
I responded, “Yeah, but they know my secret place now.”
God said, “They have their own secret place and you have yours.”
I pleaded, “God change my heart. My mind understands but my heart only wants my alone time with You to be between the two of us.”
God reassured me that all of us have our own secret place, which is just between Him and us. I didn’t need to worry about my secret place because it was just between God and me. He has for sure been changing my heart, though it wasn’t easy writing this book. I know that He longs to spend one on one time with each of us. As you read the devotions I hope you not only walk away with lessons the Lord has taught me but that you too can find your own secret place with the Lord. God longs for you to spend time with Him. He has been waiting for you to come to the throne room to sit on His lap and talk about life.